So I had the first of my "Evolution of Lady K" concerts tonight. I think its more of a recital than a concert but whatever it is, it's good. Don't get me wrong, I made mistakes in every song I played and some I even had to try 3 times, but I was ok with it. I knew it wasn't detrimental. I didn't have the same overwhelming sense of dread that I usually get when I'm performing. The concert was intimate. Only 3 people were able to come, but I am so grateful that they made it. They were the right people to have there for the first concert. I've already decided to have another one on Dec 9 that will be a Christmas theme and will probably be a good old fashioned carol sing. Way I figure it, the more I can perform the better. I'm hoping that by the end of January I have worked on some repertoire with my piano teacher so I can play some new music. This was fun thougbh. I'm really glad I did it.
On a side note, I have to say I'm always amazed at how God works. I expected that this concert would just be me playing music and having some big epiphany about being afraid to play that would matter to me. Instead, God blind sides me with the size of my audience. I didn't expect to be so upset if only a few people could come, but I was. On Wednesday I was absolutely devastated. God decided to turn that around and show me that I have been taking those people that really do appreciate my music and have been present when I am playing for granted. Dad coming to Red Deer to see the choir perform, Richard coming to the choir concert in Calgary and many other times that people have gone out of their way to see me play. I'm realizing that even if I'm not playing to a stadium full of people, the performance still matters to whoever is listening and I need to put the people that didn't come out of my mind and play amazingly to say thank you to the people that did come as a thank you for their time. Some day I may play to a sold out crowd, but in the meantime, I will play to whoever will listen.
P.S. - keep your eyes (ears) peeled. I have started working on the Surrender recording and there is an entire album's worth of inspiration coming from it. It's called "The Evolution of Lady K". Stay tuned for more info.
